Wednesday, April 05, 2006
12 songs I want to REMAKE if I'll make an Album
1) Imagine (John Lennon)
2) Come Together (The Beatles)
3) More Today Than Yesterday (Spiral Staircase)
4) Someone To Watch Over Me (Frank Sinatra/Nina Simone/Sting)
5) Bohemian Rapsody (Queen)
6) No Woman No Cry (Bob Marley)
7) Believe In Humanity (Carole King)
8) Man 98 (Wolfgang)
9) Uninvited (Alanis Morisette)
10) Man In A Mirror (Michael Jackson)
11) Enter Sandman (Metallica)
12) Boulevard of Broken Dreams (Greenday)
*Actually there's a lot more but these songs are only for my first album, hehe. Wait for my second release.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
FOUR SEASONS
One dreary winter
An avalanche of pain
Buries me
Nobody to call
Can’t move
All I have is a numbed body
As the snow melts down
Through my veins
A hurricane of frustrations
Swallows me whole
Nothing to hold
Mournfully drowned
All I have is an ocean of tears
As I continue on my journey
A stormy summer
Covers my trail
Nowhere to go
Completely lost
All I have is a dusty path
As I face the battle
An army of ordeals
Defeats my fate
I fall on my knees
Still trying to win
All I have is a troop of agony!!!
My prime of my life…
An avalanche of pain…
A hurricane of frustrations…
A stormy summer…
A fall of army…
All I have is catastrophic seasons!!!
14 October 01
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
What Really Am I???
*Got this from Tobie
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Brokeback Big Ba(A)ng

Watched BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN today at Gateway (Cinema 3, 7pm) with my new friend, Waise Azimi.
But before that, met JOSIE and DAE at 4pm at Baang Cafe to get the petty cash.
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It was PINOY BIG BANG SA EUROPA shoot at Global last Thursday (16 Feb). Randy Santiago came at 3pm. Then Say Alonzo of Pinoy Big Brother followed at 5pm. Subsequently, the new "crush ng bayan" Sam Milby arrived at 7pm. And the last one who came at 8pm was Star In A Million winner Frenchie Dy.

Sam was talking to my childhood friend from Pampanga, Karen E. Malig.
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Yesterday (17 Feb) went home around 12:30pm from PINOY BIG BANG SA EUROPA editing at Post TV Manila. Met Elton (owner & my artist) & Jason (who happens to know Paolo Dy too --- small world, huh?).
I woke up at 5:30pm when Emman called me on my cell phone to tell that we have to meet for his short film shoot on 25 Feb (Edsa Revolution). We met at Filipinas Production (Room 305-306 Salomon Bldg. E. Rodriguez, QC) where most of the indipendent filmakers where there.
After that I followed Jacque (she was with Joey & Joven) at Kalye Juan (restaurant in Tomas Morato).
Then Jacque and I went to Baang Cafe to discuss the shoot of Emman's short film. We saw there Red & Mona --- they were with Jay & Jet. An hour after, saw Direk Jon Red (and his wife) at the cafe too --- some of the indie filmakers followed --- and one of them was Emman.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
My color is RED
Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.*Emailed to me by Jacque. Go and check it out.
http://web.tickle.com/invite
Thursday, February 09, 2006
A Lesson in Coffee
Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.
Offering his guests coffee, the lecturer went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, some plain-looking and some expensive and exquisite, telling them to helpthemselves to hot coffee.
When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the lecturer said:
"If you noticed, all the nice-looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones.
While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress.
What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the better cups and are eyeing each other's cups."
"Now, if Life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups.
They are just tools to hold and contain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change."
"Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it."
Emailed by Crissy De Guzman (Tue, 31 Jan 2006 08:49:25)
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Arogante nga ba???
Hay naku!
Ang mga tao nga naman…
Kung minsan, magbigay ka lang ng rason
Arrogante ka na.
O kaya naman,
i-tama mo ang
arogante ka na.
Minsan naman,
Maging intelektwal lang ang hirit mo
Arogante ka na
Eh Sino at ano ba ang arogante sa 'yo?
Sa tingin ko
Ang mga taong nagsasabi na arogante ka
eh yung mga di makatanggap ng rason.
'Yung mga ayaw ma-korek ng iba
(pride siyempre)
At 'yung mga nagsasabi na,
"Ang defensive mo naman" o
"Ang reklamo mo!".
At siyepre, "Hay naku, feeling know-it-all!".
Pero di ba,
masasabihan ko lang arogante
kapag ang taong nagsasabi nun eh arogante din?
Or 'yung tipong ayaw magpa-korek o magpatalo...
'Yung gusto laging bida.
Or kung boss ka,
Lalong ayaw mong humihirit ang under sa 'yo
Insubordination 'yun!
Kasi nga naman,
ang feeling mo eh nawawala na ang respeto sa 'yo.
O baka lang na di mo matanggap
(O takot ka lang)
na mas magaling ang subordinate mo sa 'yo?
Nakakatawa talaga ang mga tao.
Sabihin lang ng iba
o marinig lang sa iba
na arogante ka eh ganun ka kagad sa paningin nila.
Tipo bang wala ka ng chance
i-prove ang sarili mo sa kanila.
Ika nga eh "jaded" na sila.
Mas alam pa nga nila kesa sa 'yo
Ang tunay na ugali mo
Parang mas marami pa silang alam
tungkol sa 'yo
kesa ikaw ang may alam sa sarili mo.
Siguro talaga judegemental ang mga tao.
Nakakainis ano?
O well, ganyan talagang ang buhay.
Kaya ako, I'll do whatever I want
I'll say what I want (pero siyempre careful pa rin)
Wala akong pakialam kung ano ang sasabihin ng iba
Kasi di naman ako pinanganak
para mag-adjust sa mga taong nasa paligid ko.
Basta importante happy ako...
So arogante nga ba???
The Pickle Jar
The pickle jar as far back as I can remember sat on the floor beside the dresser in my parents' bedroom.
When he got ready for bed, Dad would empty his pockets and toss his coins into the jar.
As a small boy I was always fascinated at the sounds the coins made as they were dropped into the jar. They landed with a merry jingle when the jar was almost empty. Then the tones gradually muted to a dull thud as the jar was filled.
I used to squat on the floor in front of the jar and admire the copper and silver circles that glinted like a pirate's treasure when the sun poured through the bedroom window. When the jar was filled, Dad would sit at the kitchen table and roll the coins before taking them to the bank.
Taking the coins to the bank was always a big production. Stacked neatly in a small cardboard box, the coins were placed between Dad and me on the seat of his old truck.
Each and every time, as we drove to the bank, Dad would look at me hopefully. "Those coins are going to keep you out of the textile mill, son. You're going to do better than me. This old mill town's not going to hold you back." Also, each and every time, as he slid the box of rolled coins across the counter at the bank toward the cashier, he would grin proudly "These are for my son's college fund. He'll never work at the mill all his life like me."
We would always celebrate each deposit by stopping for an ice cream cone. I always got chocolate. Dad always got vanilla. When the clerk at the ice cream parlor handed Dad his change, he would show methe few coins nestled
in his palm. "When we get home, we'll start filling the jar again." He always let me drop the first coins into the empty
jar. As they rattled around with a brief, happy jingle, we grinned at each other. "You'll get to college on pennies, nickels, dimes and quar ters," he said. "But you'll getthere. I'll see to that."
The years passed, and I finished college and took a job in another town. Once, while visiting my parents, I used the phone in their bedroom, and noticed that the pickle jar was gone. It had served its purpose and had been removed.
A lump rose in my throat as I stared at the spot beside the dresser where the jar had always stood. My dad was a man of few words, and never lectured me on the values of determination, perseverance, and faith.
The pickle jar had taught me all these virtues far more eloquently than the most flowery of words could have done. When I married, I told my wife Susan about the significant part the lowly pickle jar had played in my life as a boy. In my mind, it defined, more than anything else, how much my dad had loved me.
No matter how rough things got at home, Dad continued to doggedly drop his coins into the jar. Even the summer when Dad got laid off from the mill, and Mama had to serve dried beans several times a week, not a single dime was taken from the jar.
To the contrary, as Dad looked across the table at me, pouring catsup over my beans to make them more palatable, he became more determined than ever to make a way out for me. "When you finish college, Son," he told me, his eyes glistening, "You'll never have to eat beans again - unless you want to."
The first Christmas after our daughter Jessica was born, we spent the holiday with my parents. After dinner, Mom and Dad sat next to each other on the sofa, taking turns cuddling their first grandchild. Jessica began to whimper softly, and Susan took her from Dad's arms. "She probably needs to be changed," she said, carrying the baby into my
parents' bedroom to diaper her. When Susan came back into the living room, there was a strange mist in her eyes.
She handed Jessica back to Dad before taking my hand and leading me into the room. "Look," she said softly, her eyes directing me to a spot on the floor beside the dresser. To my amazement, there, a s if it had never been
removed, stood the old pickle jar, the bottom already covered with coins. I walked over to the pickle jar, dug down into my pocket, and pulled out a fistful of coins. With a gamut of emotions choking me, I dropped the coins into the jar. I looked up and saw that Dad, carrying Jessica, had slipped quietly into the room. Our eyes locked, and I knew he was feeling the same emotions I felt. Neither one of us could speak.
This truly touched my heart. I know it has yours as well. Sometimes we are so busy adding up our troubles that we forget to count our blessings.
Never underestimate the power of your actions. With one small gesture you can change a person's life, for better or for worse.
God puts us all in each other's lives to impact one another in some way. Look for God in others.
The best and most beautiful things cannot be seen or touched - they must be
felt with the heart ~ Helen Keller
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Patience is a VIRTUE
Yesterday was a busy day. I fixed our permits to shoot --- on February 5 (Tecson Street ) and February 6 (North Cemetery) --- at Manila City Hall. It was a long and tedious process before you get the approval to shoot:
1) Submit a Letter to Director of Manila City Hall
2) But before that the secretary has to receive the letter first --- STAMP! RECEIVED!)
3) Then they will forward it to the secretary (the one who will type the endorsement letter)
4) Give you the first endorsement letter
5) Deliver the endorsement letters to the location of shoots and department concerned (like for example the TECSON STREET, I have to give the endorsement letter to TRAFFIC BUREAU first and they will give their endorsement too --- same with NORTH CEMETERY, which by the way I just got their endorsement thes morning).
6) After receiving their endorsements, you have to return to Manila City Hall to give it to the Director.
7) Manila City Hall's Director will give his approval
8) They will do their approval and agreement letter
9) Give to the Director's secretary again --- she'll give the approval letter only. Meaning, you are now ready to pay the permit
10) Look for Rm146 (They will fill up the form for you but of course, another "higher-up" will sign it)
11) Then give to Window A (I don't know exactly what they did there --- another form to be filled-up again by them)
12) Go to cashier and pay (at last!)
13) Give the receipt to the secretary
14) Secretary will ask the Director to sign the approval letter.
15) Yehey!!! Done with the "bureaucratic" system!!!
There was an annoying (but funny after) story I had while fixing the permit. The Assistant Director, Mr. Zacharias (the Director was on leave), asked me to get the endorsment letters after lunch because the computer was not working. So I had my lunch at KARATE KID in SM Manila and wandered around the mall till 1:00pm. Then I returned to city hall but Mr. Zachariaz was not back from lunch yet --- well someone said that he had a late lunch. So I went back to SM again and stayed there for about 30 mins. When I returned to City Hall the Secretary was there already and she said that the endorsement was not yet done. I went to see the one who is doing the endorsement letter (please #3 of the process, hehe) and she said, "Ay naku!!! Di ko pa nakakagawa yung endorsement letter kasi di pa nakakabili ng mouse".... I was like "Duh?!? Whaaaaaaat?!?!".... You don't have a mouse the reason you haven't done the endorsement letter yet. My gosh!!! SM was just accross the City Hall and you haven't able to buy a mouse?!? You should have told me and I would have bought a mouse for her!!!! Or she had just borrowed a mouse from her office mates. Grrrr!!! I can't believe it that they were not resourceful enough to think of a solution. But at least...finally... she just borrowed mouse from her officemate (kasi sinata ko na siya)... and that's how my endorsement letter was done!
Actually, my cousin's wife assisted me yesterday to secure a permit (it helped me a lot to know someone who have a position in the city hall). But I didn't bug her anymore regarding what happened to me yesterday because I still wanted to do the right process of securing a permit ---- LOOOONG & TEEEEDIOUS!!! It really tested my PATIENCE!!!
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Siglo: Passion

Original Graphic Novel/ Anthology Edited by Dean Alfar and Vincent Michael Simbulan Published by Nautilus Comics.
Siglo: Passion is the sequel to the National Book Award-winning anthology Siglo: Freedom. This time around, the book explores the passions of the Filipino people, from food to family, from religion to nation, through twelve stories set across one hundred years of history and beyond. With a roster of award-winning writers and artists (full roster list to be provided upon request), Siglo: Passion promises to be an unforgettable experience, and yet another milestone in Philippine comic book history.
Note: This edition of Siglo: Passion will be in full-color, the first full-color graphic novel in the country, and will be limited to only two thousand (2000) copies. This limited edition of the book will be the only full-color edition that will ever be released in the country and will NOT be reprinted.
Note: From October to November, readers may pre-purchase their copies of Siglo: Passion at discounted rates, in any Comic Quest outlet. They will be handed ticket stubs and a limited edition Siglo Postcard Set which can only be obtained this way. The ticket stubs can be used to claim the book once it is released, and will also serve as your invite to the book launch in December.
FilipinoWriter.com
Saturday, November 05, 2005

Love is an accident...
Waiting to happen.
Desire is a stranger...
You think you know.
Intimacy is a lie...
We tell ourselves.
Truth is a game...
You play to win.
If you believe in love at first sight...
You never stop looking.
- From CLOSER movie trailer
Friday, October 07, 2005
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Invitation for Saturday, Oct 8th

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1st YEAR ANNIVERSARY GROUP SHOW
October 8 –
Reception: Saturday, October 8,
Group show: Matt Aston, Margaret von Biesen, John Brosio, Chati Coronel, Kai Samuel-Davis, Richard Godfrey, Jane Gyer, Jon Higgins, Star Higgins, Jett Jackson, Miguel Osuña, Rebeka Roberts, Nancy Seruto, Dean Triolo, Rosalyn Wiley and John Reiff Williams.
Introducing: Artist crafted & eco-friendly furnishings by David Buckingham, Martha Higgins, Kent Maris, Peri Shefik, Ray Sutton and Mark Walsh.
Cary Meshul was born in
As part of his studies for this degree, he spent a year at Hornsey Fine Art Academy in
His career as an artist has involved both fine art and graphic design. As an art director, he has worked for such companies as Paper Moon Graphics, MGM, NBC, and 20th Century Fox. As a fine artist, his watercolors, ink paintings, and oil paintings have been shown internationally. He has lived in
From 1986 to 1989 he studied with an acknowledged master of Chinese traditional painting in the People’s Republic of
Mr. Meshul lived in
He presently works in oil paints, acrylics, watercolor, and Chinese ink, blending Western and Eastern techniques and themes. Working with acrylics, he has experimented extensively with the use of color to extend the limits of a two-dimensional medium. Concerns of surface and the illusion of depth are realized in a layered, impressionistic technique, with close color harmonies producing an inherent luminescence.
Mr. Meshul’s work can be found in many collections. He currently lives in
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Sunday, July 24, 2005

MOORE INTERVIEWS MANSON
(Bowling for Columbine Documentary)
MOORE: Do you know the day Columbine happened... the U.S. dropped more bombs on Kosovothan any other time during that war?
MANSON: I do know that... and I think that's really ironice that nobody said, "Maybe the President had an influence on this violent behavior"... No, because that's not the way the media wants to take it and spin it... and turn it into fear. Because then you're watching TV... and turn into fear. Because then you're watching TV... you're watching the news being pumped full of fear... and then there's flood, there's AIDS, there's murder... cut to commercial, buy the ACURA, buy the colgate...if you have bad breath, they're not gonna talk to you. If you got pimples... the girls not gonna fuck you... and it's just campaign... of fear and consumption. And I think it's all based on... Is the whole idea that "Keep everyone afraid and they'll consume". And that's really as simple it can be boiled to.
...When I was a kid, grouwing up... music was the escape. That's the only thing that had no judgements. Put on a record, and it won't yell at you for dressing the way you do. It's gonna make you feel better about it.
.... I definitely can see why they pick me... because I think it's easy to throw my face on TV... because I'm... in the end, sort of a "poster boy" of fear. Because I represent what everyone's afraid of... because I do and say what I want.
... The two byproducts... of that whole tragedy were violence in entertainment and gun control and how perfect that those were the two things we were gonna talk about... with the upcoming elections. Also, then we forgot about Monica Lewinsky. And we forgot about the President shooting bombs overseas. Yet I'm a bad guy... because I sing some tock and roll songs... and who's the bigger influence, the President or Marilyn Manson? I'd like to think me but I'll go with the President.
MOORE: If you're going to talk directly to the kids at Columbine... or that community, what would you say to them if they were here?
MANSON: I wouldn't say a single words to them. I'd listen to what they have to say... That's no one did.
(Transcribed by me)
Saturday, July 23, 2005
The Fool (Tarot Card)
The fool is an interesting card, it is a key of 0 and yet a key of 22 as well. There are 22 cards to the Major Arcana, starting with number 1-21..the number 22 would seem to be missing if we just called it 0. The 0 key, represents the god force, the force before entering into manifestation, but in the same right, this card completes the cycle as number 22. Life continues on and on in a cycle and the number 22 is an ancient symbol for a circle representing god and infinity, because a circle has no starting point or end. The Fool represents the Super conscious in which he has yet one more step ahead of him, symbolic of the fact that we never come to our limit in potential.The bright sun over head represents the life energy that is forever rising. The mountains in the distance, even though bleak and cold rising high in the sky bring forth water when the sun melts the peaks, bringing life and nourishment to the ones below. His bag represents the memories of the past, with the eagle on it representing an awaked view towards aspirations. The white rose in his hand represents the pure desire and untainted goals, while the dog at his feet is symbolic of the lower incarnations that are elevated by evolution.
http://www.crystalinks.com/tarot.html
The day I was GAY!!!
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Alexander Martin Remollino
Matapos na babuyin ang mga balota
At baliin ang susing magbubukas sana
Sa mga kahong nagkakanlong sa tunay na pasya ng bayan,
Ang panipis na nang panipis na bituka ng mamamayan
Ay binutas, Binutas ng rehimen.
At ang kalikasang noon pa’y nilamas-lamas
Ng mga dayuhan
Ay tuluyang sa kanila’y ipinagahasa.
Dumalas ang pagbaha ng mga paa sa lansangan,
Ang pagpinta ng mga bandila
At pagtuldok ng mga kamao
Sa himpapawid.
At bakit hindi?
Ang mga mamamaya’y mga tao,
Di tulad ng mga namumuno sa bansa.
Ngunit sapagkat iginigiit ang pagiging mga tao,
Ang sagot sa kanila ay dahasin,
Pataying parang mga hayop.
Ito raw ay upang maipagsanggalang ang demokrasya.
Ang demokrasya’y ipinagtatanggol
Ng rehimeng nahalal nang di nahalal,
Rehimeng gumahasa sa demokrasya.
Kaya’t halina,
Isigaw natin nang buong lakas
Ang hatol ng ating panahon:
Nararapat na gumulong
Ang ulong may suot na koronang ninakaw.
Isigaw natin ito hanggang sa mabuwag
Ng ating mga tinig ang mga alambreng pader ng Mendiola.
Tiyakin nating matutupad ang banta ng ating panahon:
Mene thecel phares* (Bilang na ang araw mo)
Huwad na Pangulo.
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Notes:Variation: Mene – the days of your kingdom are numbered, it is finished;Tekel – You have been weighed and found wanting;Peres – Your kingdom is divided
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Call to the Filipino Artist
To the best of our abilities, and even if we oftentimes fail, we want to do works that will hurt, films that will disturb, films that will not make you rest. For the times are really bad, and given times like these, it is a crime to rest. We can not rest, and we should not, while there’s a fellow Filipino starving in Negros, an Aquino or Galman crying for justice, a salvage victim lying in a mountain of garbage while a corrupt family rules the country with uncontrolled power and wealth. While it is the duty of the artist to work for what is true, good, and beautiful, first we have to expose and fight what is wrong.
In these times when most of the media hide the truth from us, when most of what we get from the media are silly gossip and petty flesh and sensationalized crimes, we go to the streets to find out what’s happening. We listen to those artists who dare risk their lives and livelihoods, who reiterate once more the utmost duty of the artist --- that the artist is a committed person, that he will always take the side of any human being who is violated, abused, oppressed, dehumanized whatever his instrument ---the pen, the brush, or the camera."

- Lino Brocka
Artist as Citizen
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

"Throughout the centuries there were men who took first steps down new roads armed with nothing but their own vision"
- Ayn Rand
Rode a bus for the first time here in California. It was interesting and fun experience!!!

I went to Wilshire to submit resume to Job Placement Agencies. Acutally, there was one who wanted me to teach the "html". Because the job that I am going to do (if I will accept it) is to make a website for a jewelry shop in Downtown LA (yup!!! It's in Downtown LA). But of course, I can not accept the job right now for some reasons (and considerations).
And oh... I met Ben in the first agency I went. We had our lunch in one of the pinoy restaurants in Vermont. After our lunch, Ben just dropped me in Wilshire because he had still an appointment with his dentist.
Finally, I watched "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory".
Johnny Depp gave justice to the role of "Willy Wonka". He was funny and humorous!!!

I am really amazed too with the eccentricities of Tim Burton --- he is weird and creative!!! Tim has a new animated movie coming out...

...it is entitled, "Corpse Bride".
The visual treatment is very much similar with "Nightmare Before Christmas".
Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter are the lead characters' voice in that film.
Oh how I wish I could make a film someday --- a film that I will be proud of.
So those were my escapades yesterday... and I still look forward to ride a bus here in California!!!
Saturday, July 16, 2005

A Scanner Darkly
Based on the 1977 novel by Philip K. Dick (More information)
Release Date:March, 2006
Director:Richard Linklater
Cast and Characters:Keanu Reeves as Fred/Bob Arctor; Rory Cochrane as Freck; Robert Downey Jr. as Barris; Woody Harrelson as Luckman; and Winona Ryder as Donna
ABOUT THE FILM
"A Scanner Darkly" is set in suburban Orange County, California in a future where America has lost the war on drugs. When one reluctant undercover cop is ordered to start spying on his friends, he is launched on a paranoid journey into the absurd, where identities and loyalties are impossible to decode. It is a cautionary tale of drug use based on the novel by Philip K. Dick and his own experiences.
Like a graphic novel come to life, "A Scanner Darkly" will use live action photography overlaid with an advanced animation process (interpolated rotoscoping) to create a haunting, highly stylized vision of the future. The technology, first employed in Richard Linklater’s 2001 film "Waking Life," has evolved to produce even more emotional impact and detail.

"The basic tool for the manipulation of reality is the manipulation of words. If you can control the meaning of words, you can control the people who must use the words."
- Philip K.Dick
Yesterday...
Vincent and I did errands --- bought flowers at Downtown LA, dropped the CD at Ultra Print and deposited the checks at Citibank (and I already opened an account too). After accomplishing those tasks, we decided to "CALL IT A DAY!".
Then Vincent dropped me at the Pinoy store and I've decided to eat fresh lumpia at Red Ribbon --- got Ma a pancit palabok because that's her favorite. I was in line when an old lady asked me to go ahead since her grand daughter was still deciding what to order. Aferward, (well I assumed) her husband was complaining to her why I went ahead and she told him "Di pa kami nakakapag-decide kaya pinauna ko na siya". Oh gosh!!! That old man was irritating!!! Anyway, I just enjoyed my fresh lumpia.
I headed to JONS after because Ma asked me to buy 10 garlics, 10 bananas, 1 box of trash bags and Cheerios (cereal). But I was able to buy 10 bananas and Cheerios only because they had small garlic and had no trash bags (what kind of a grocery!).
Ma was surprised why I got home early... of course, I had to explain. So I changed my clothes and put the handles of her new dresser's drawers (which I promised her last Wednesday --- the day it was delivered). Damn!!! That dresser gave me a strenuous Wednesday evening --- Imagine, I had to take off the cover (with box, plastic, styro and everything.. you know!!!). At least, I was able to do my responsibility for Ma and I made her happy (in a way).
Today...
Tobinworld ordered a flower arrangement worth $30. She requested to use pink and white flowers. It was a very "lady" and "sweetie" kind of arrangement because they were going to it to twenty-ish celebrator. I was pleased because she appreciated my arrangement. Although, I was not happy with what I did.
I am expecting this afternoon the GWP (Glendale Water and Power) to fis the lights. Well, I do hope that they will not come late.
Tita Baby returned my call. We had a little chit chats because I told her that I already missed her --- That's true!!! I really do miss her!!! She's the older version of me! We have the same personality and attitude. But I just do hope that I will not have the same experience with marriage... which I will not elaborate anymore.
So far... yesterday was all right. I just do hope today will be better!!!
Thursday, July 14, 2005

Emmeric Konrad, “Jim Fittipaldi” (detail), 1998.
For the past twenty years, art dealer Jim Fittipaldi, one of the founding members of the downtown art scene, has provided more than just exposure for local artists through his Bedlam Gallery. Opening his private home, he created a gathering place for his creative brethren. Hence, over the years he has amassed a very rich collection. “My intention was more than just to collect artwork, but to give this community a family atmosphere for the exchange of creative dialogue in a mature setting.”
M.J. HIGGINS 244 S. Main St., Los Angeles, CA 90012213.617.1700Hours: Tues. – Sat. 11 – 7
easy parking @ Joe's 230 S. Main (just north of the gallery) $4 free after 5pm
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Deep, serious, introspective, and analytical, you accept nothing at face value, and you are always probing into the hidden side or deeper meaning of situations and people. You are fascinated by the mysterious and unknown. You enjoy periods of solitude in peaceful surroundings, and need time to study, reflect, or meditate. You may be given to much daydreaming and flights of the imagination as well. The ocean has a powerful attraction for you. The study of philosophy, psychology, scientific research, metaphysics, or religion appeals to you. You are scientific in your approach to Truth. Private, reserved, and rather secretive, there are probably very few who truly know and understand your inner thoughts, feelings, hopes, and aspirations. Unless you learn to share your deeper self more freely, and to be less of an idealistic perfectionist, you may be rather lonely.
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--- A Spice of Life
Last night, my grandmother and I re-arranged the furnitures in the living room because the dresser and carpet she ordered will be delivered today (between 1pm - 5pm). Surprisingly, my patience and tolerance were very high!!! I don't know... I've noticed everyday that I get less and less agitated by my grandmother's grumpiness and grouchiness. I guess, I get accustomed by it... which is a GOOD SIGN!!! Am I evolving??? Am I growing spiritually and mentally???
My stay here in America has a lot of learning experiences (the best and the worst things) which made me appreciate more my family and friends back in the Philippines. But of course, I have to be strong in order to achieve my goal... which is to be a film maker (or just to work in a film industry). But if fate will not permit that... I can always try somewhere else ... or I can go back home...
Sometimes, I am contemplating if I made the right decision... or if this endeavour was really for me. I asked God for signs if this was really meant for me. At present, I feel that I am in limbo... but not lost!!! Or maybe, I just wanted to have "drama" in my life... Well, "drama" adds spice in life. ... hmmm... I am already going around the bush... so it would be better if I'll just it end here now.
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
This morning I helped my grandmother "Ma" walk in front of her house. While observing her, I've realized how hard to be OLD. Because before, she was active and lively during her young years. She used to be the TOP 5 Beautiful Women in the City of San Fernando Pampanga --- well dressed and smart looking!!! My grandma was known to be a "socialite" in our province. She always narrates to me with pride how the people looked and respected her before. There were also actresses and renowned personalities that were being compared to her too (Carmen Rosales, Liberty Ilagan, Paraluman and Imelda Marcos). For me, she was and still look like Imelda Marcos. I can still vividly recall how smart and dignified she was ---well actually, I still find her that way!!! And no one from her three daughters (of course, including my mother) who looked the way she was.
And till now, my grandfather, "Tang" finds her pretty and gorgeous!!! Everytime he sees her, he always say "Kalago ng Ma mo!!!" ("How pretty your Ma is") with matching loving looks to her... which is very obvious that he is still very in love with Ma. And Ma likes that a lot!!!
Anyway, that's my MA!!! Who will I always be remebered as smart, energetic, adventurous, analytical and "OC" being!!!
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Tito Pio and I will go today (10am) at Downtown LA market to buy flowers for tomorrow's delivery at Beverly Blvd. (what a coincidence... the name of the customer was Beverly too).
The following we have to buy:
1) Mini carnations (peach & blue --- blossoms & buds)
2) Novelty pompons (blue --- if there is)
3) #5 sheer ribbon (peach)
4) Baby's breath
We're going to make a lei and 10 boutonnieres for their graduation.
Oooooopsss... my uncle just called... I have to go out of the shop now because he'll be here at the shop in 5 mins... gotta go!
Saturday, July 09, 2005
...that's all I can say with my boring day!!!
My "now you see and now you don't" Tito Jojo attended a party with his Sav-on's friends. While my Tito Pio and my cousin Vincent didn't go at the shop because they have a jet lag. And my every "makulit" grandmother "MA" called many times to tell me to go home early if no one from my two uncles will bring me home.
At this point, I don't know what to do... Kainis!!! Hmmmmmm... again... "HAY NAKU!" (sigh)
Friday, July 08, 2005
London Transport System Bombing(A newspaper board is seen as one of London's trademark double-decker busses drives past, in central London, late Thursday July 7, 2005. A string of rush-hour explosions tore into at least three London subway trains and a double-decker bus on Thursday in the worst attack on London since World War II, killing at least 37 people and)


THE FLYER
"Flowers of St. Anne"
Here's the flyer I did for the flowershop which I just completed yesterday. I am not happy with the design but I don't wanna revise it anymore because I am already sick and tired of this thing. Plus, I had to finish it so that we have something to distribute to our prospective clients.
Actually, doing the marketing is the hardest part in the business --- most especially if you are not articulate enough to promote your shop. For days already, I've been calling the churches, restaurants and Broadcasting companies to know if they are open to try our flower shop --- Unfortunately, there were only few of them who were open to our business... grrrr!!!
Well anyhow, I do hope that the flower shop will be successful!!!
Sunday, August 15, 2004
09 AUGUST
I started my week with PBA Dubai editing --- simultaneously with Engineering Party --- so almost everyone in I-post was in a party mood already and was in a hurry to finish their work. They gave a broken schedule in editing (3pm-7pm & 12mn-4pm) so that the artists can attend the party. So while waiting for my artist, Joven, Andy & I went to I.O. to have a videoke. We stayed there for almost two (2) hours and we had fun too. Andy gave me his gifts --- a VERONICA GUERIN & IN AMERICA dvds --- he's such a sweet friend. So we did sing all night long (as if there was no tomorrow, hehe). My artist, arrived at 2am (We were kinda not talking to each other though. Because he took negatively what I texted to him. But everything became fine after) at we finished the plug around 9am.
10 AUGUST
I stayed at home only. Tobie and Ricky presented the PBA Dubai to clients.
11 AUGUST
LDD Meeting, Rolling Van Europe and CD Plug editing.
I had LDD meeting with Tobie and Ricky at Window's (where we usually brainsorm). Then resumed to my Rolling van editng at 12nn-3pm...I wasn't able to finish my Rolling Van Europe because my editor was just starting to learn the machine. And with CD Plug, I had no problem with my artist because we've been doing this for a long time.
I dropped off Yam at the Rhunes (where she saw Noel Cabangon).
Trying to sleep early for my editing the next day but was able to sleep around 12mn.
12 AUGUST
I woke up at 4am for my 6am editing. Bad trip!!! He was late!!! Jacque and I had our breakfast at Mc Donald's Panay. I saw Papa (with Floyd) there too --- they were heading to Pangasinan. When we got back to ABS-CBN, Geoffrey was not yet there. So Jacque helped me with my editing... thanks to her =) At last, Geoffrey arrived!!! We had a hard time typing the details because it was "alien" with us the addresses...very foreign!!! Then Jen V. called to tell me that the guard from the parking lot said that I left my car unlocked. So I headed to parking and locked my car... thanks to Jen!!! We left the I-post at 1pm --- when the next program arrived in editng bay.
Geoffrey, Jacque & I had our lunch at Kimchi. I was very sleepy so I bought coffee in Mini-Stop --- well, the coffee perked me up!!! Then accompanied Jacque & Joven to Petrus Cafe --- Jacque treated us there!!! On our way back to ELJ, Elaine called me in my cellphone to tell me that Beth was calling an emergency meeting ---- it was all about on GENERAL ASSEMBLY thing. Then finally, I went home --- dropped Jacque at Tomas Morato cor. Roces (it was raining)
13 AUGUST
Friday the 13th! But it was not a freaking day though, hehe. We were supposedly to have an LDD meeting but was moved to afternoon because Beth was in Ops. Mtg.
I had my lunch at Yellow Cab with Tobie, Marianne, Hoho (the driver as usual), Ramil, Jen, Joey & Danny.
We had our LDD meeting at 2pm. Beth told me to look for another director since Unitel's CE didn't meet our budget (poor thing!). So I called Paolo Dy and told him the Director's fee --- thank God he is ok with the budget --- hoorey!!! After that, I revised the timetable and e-mailed to Ghe.
Then Hoho and I watched "Collateral" at Shangrila. But before that, we dropped Joey to her home. We finished the film around 11:30pm and went back to office to get my car.
14 AUGUST
Toppel went to our house to meet with Patrick ---they are busy with this "Nike --- short film". They went to Benny's place and consulted him regarding with the prosthetics.
I went to the gym (after 5 days without workout) and had my dinner there too. After that, I went to Hi-top to buy some groceries.
When I got home, Aga was in our house eating dinner with family. After dinner, Pat & Aga went to Pat's room. Pat & I were supposedly to watch a film but didn't go because it was raining. So we just stayed home.
15 AUGUST
Papa was surprised that I woke early. He asked me if I was going somewhere --- well, I just attended an 11am mass at St. Paul Church.
Toppel picked up Pat here in our house --- they'll meet with the female talent. After taking my lunch, I went to sleep (till 4pm). Then I watched The Buzz (Sheryll Cruz) & Amazing Race (the brothers were eliminated).
Ma & Pa attended mass at 7pm. Pat got back from Divisoria (with Toppel --- then they left at 10pm again).
Well, after I finish with my "blogger" I'll fix my stuff for the next day --- which is a new start of the week!!!
Sunday, August 08, 2004
--- Belief presents: Pollinate Volume 01
I don't know exactly what to utter or how to react after watching the Belief CD (compilation of video works from artists all over the world). Right now, I am very limited with the things I do at work and I feel that there's no room for growth anymore. However, I am VERY certain that there's always a hope for change... it may not be exactly in my current job...but it could be in my next venture.
"Being an artist is being in a journey" .... "Art has no creative boundries"...
Friday, August 06, 2004
Came to the office at 9am to attend the LDD Telecon with NA Clients. Surprisingly, Ricky was early (maybe he was making up with his lates for the past meetings we had, hehe). Our clients (Kerwin and Rose) chose the "Babae Po Ako" concept over "Otso-Otso/Pamela" concept --- but Rose was kinda having a second thought with "all-gay cast" tvc though --- still... the "Babae Po Ako" concept got the crown.
After the Telecon, we proceeded to finalizing the concept they chose --- from the actors to copy. While busy with LDD tvc, we looked down the window and saw plenty of people on the street, and there were ambulance and fire trucks too. At first, we thought there was a shoot but untill a security guard told us that FIRE DRILL has started and he asked us to go down the building (we didn't hear the fire alarm). So we all went down (from 9th floor to ground) --- well, we didn't just do the fire excercises but we did an physical excercises too (by taking the stairs in going down). Whew!!! That was really an experience.
Thursday, August 05, 2004
It was raining cats and dogs at 2:30pm when I went outside of TOC --- got my Joblane plug from Arman. Since I was wearing my red sandals (w/ chinese fabric) I had to take the long way going to ELJ Building so that my feet won't get wet. While I was walking slowly (scared of slipping), I heard a male voice saying "Careful..." then he held my arm... Thought it was Kuya Edwin (Mendoza) but it wasn't... it was EDU MANZANO!!! Oh my God!!! I was head over heels!!! He was really a down to earth and gentleman person... can't believe that he'll do that to someone he doesn't know. After that "showbiz yet ecstatic" moment, I can say that I already have a crush on EDU MANZANO because he is really an OK FINE guy!!!
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
I was planning of not going to work today since I had a straight duty (stayed in the office for 19 hours because I produced JOBLANE plug). But the day didn't cooperate with me... went to the office instead...grrrr!!!
There were some reasons why I had to report to work:
1) Ghe asked me if what time I am going to work...duh?!? Didn't she know that I just got from editing?!!! Still NO SLEEP?!!!
Then she said that I had to sign a CHECK...Did I sign anything???
2) Arman called me to clarify if the JOBLANE plug's dealine was today... again...duh?!? Didn't he read my note?!? He even told me that he didn't see the tapes in his work station...WHHAAAAT??!!!??? I left the tapes and cd there after my editing.
3) Present our two Long Distance Direct (LDD) concepts and boards and then e-mail to clients after... since I was in the office already, I've just decided to present it with the team.
Well, at least I was able to go to the gym (where I released my stress and anger) and was able to attend POKLONG's exhibit (where I saw some friends) --- which ended my day bearable. And because of that, I had the energy (and willingness) of helping Tobie in coloring our LDD storyboards.
Hmmm... come to think of it... it was not really a bad day, huh???








